When Death Is Apparent

With all the problems we face daily, this is something I gladly share with the world.
Today, I had time to reflect to see life from many angles. God has blessed me in countless ways, and I know there is still so much more to do with Him by my side. My uncle’s passing still stings deeply. I don’t think this ache will ever fade, but it fuels my desire to bring my mother here, to keep her safe and close. I worry about her health, her peace, her tomorrow.
My uncle, Tío Papo, is struggling his tears, his pain, his exhaustion from loss. It hurts to know there’s no easy cure for the emptiness death leaves behind. And so, from this place of prayer, I write:
                                                                                                                                           When Death Is Apparent
                                                                                                                                                When death is apparent,
and family is apart,
it is difficult to heal a broken heart.
When times are tough
and emotions overflow,
nothing can mend what we cannot let go.
We pray and we share
for a glimpse of light,
yet nothing feels certain through the night.
Life goes on this we know
but what is life with one less soul?
One less person that makes us whole.
Hear this poem, for I have prayed.
Hear my words, for I have stayed 
to live on your name, unafraid.                                                                                                    -J. Perez                                                                                                                                        
God, I share this with You and the world because my family is in dire need of You. We are helpless without Your grace. In our weakest moment, Lord, we reach for You. We always need You, but now more than ever we long for Your presence, Your comfort, Your provision.
Money, healing, strength all are needed, but above all, we need You. The world drifts further from Your light, and yet I stand here praying: In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

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